Summer of 98

I know I haven't been on in a while. Everything's just been so crazy! I'm finished with my first year of highschool. I cannot believe it. I'm a sophomore. Now it's summer which means one thing: the lake. Thank God. I love the lake. I'll be out there every weekend with Jen and Alyssa. It'll be so much fun.

We Judge Them

My mom gave me Dorian Gray. The book, not the Swedish pop band. And if ya don't know it, it's this freaky story about this pretty boy who's got a painting of himself in his attic. And year after year, he stays young and beautiful, but the painting itself changes to reflect the horrible person he's become on the inside. I don't know. Stay young and beautiful forever? Maybe I'd take that deal. Kidding. Anyway, it's the whole idea that art reflects the soul and somtimes it takes on a life of it's own. I think that's true. You know, I look at the work I've done. You know, the art that's up on my walls, and it means different things to me on different days. Sometimes, I recognize the person behind it. Sometimes I don't. Anyway, it's a really good book if you're into the "twilight zone suff" as my dad calls it. The good thing about my mom's old books is that they come with all the good parts underlined. In this case, she even dog-earred a page for me. This part says, "Children begin by loving their parents. As they grow older, they judge them. Sometimes they forgive them." Mom. I love her, I do, but she's not exactly subtle. You guys know the whol mom issue I've been dealing with lately. Anyway, it got me thinking about all the choices we get to make in life. You know, what we wear, what we eat, what kind of people we're going to hang out with. My point is, in life you're pretty much the captin of your own ship. You can choose anything you want. Except one of the things you can't choose is who you're parents are. Honestly, think about it, it's completely luck of the draw. When you enter the world, there is no reset button. There is no trial period. No 30 day return policy. And we can't choose alot of the baggage our parents hand down to us. Most of them want what's best for us. Even if what THEY think is best is different from what WE think is best. But they leave their leagacy of good things and bad things. Anyway, I think it's us kids who make that choice. You know, we're the ones who have to decide to ditch the bad stuff. My mom, if you guys know me or have been reading my blog, has cancer. It's funny, I just thought of something I haven't thought about in a long time. When I was little, my mom used to tuck me into bed every night and she'd always say the same thing, "If I could line up all the little girls in the world, I'd choose you." I still remember thinking it was silly at the time. Every night, "I'd choose you." I guess Oscar Wilde was right about our parents. We love them. We judge them. And, hopefully, we forgive them. I find myself doing those things. All three of them. And if I'm lucky, maybe they'll do the same for me.

Spin Me Round

Okay, lately, I've been listening to bubble gum pop music. It's so weird. I used to be the girl who hated that kind of music. I was like, Jessica Simpson: no. Matthew Ryan: yes. Now, I love Jessica Simpson's song from her new album "You Spin Me Round (Like A Record)". Oh, and I love that new Justin Timberlake song. Ya know? The really perverted one. And the new Jesse McCartney song. What's it called? "Right Where You Want Me" I think. I'm to lazy to pull up iTunes and look. And the new Fergie song! Well, it's not really a 'new' song, but I love. I seriously sing it all the time. It's my rington. Now, everytime my phone rings, I start dancing. Anyway, the new Fall Out Boy album's coming out soon! I'm so jazzed. I love Fall Out Boy. I mean, if Pete Wentz asked me to marry him, I would. My mom would flip, and okay, technically, I can't get married, but if I could, and he asked, I would so say yes! A girl can dream! You know who else is hot? Channing Tatum. Oh, my God! I TiVo'd "She's the Man" and just kept rewinding it over and over just to watch him shirtless. I love him. Same situation goes for him as Pete Wentz. David Beckham's a hottie too! Here's my list.
1. Channing Tatum
2. James Lafferty (of course!)
3. David Beckham
4.Chad Michael Murray
5. George Clooney (I know he's old but he's so hot!)
6. Jared Padelecki (I don't know how to spell his last name)
7. Jesse Metcalfe
8. Matt Czuchry (who knows my aunt! How cool?! She won't let me meet him, though. She said I'd freak out. I so would not. Okay, I would. But, hello?)

Flypside

Hey, I know it's been awhile. There's been alot of things going on. Um, my family's company is being sold. And I'm not sure we'll get the money from it. I mean it's 4 million dollars! But it might go to my great aunt who sued us. I'm just so tired of it. Everythings going wrong. Anyway, my birthday is coming up! Yay! Go ahead, sing to me. Ya done? Good. Thanks, I appreciate it. I've decided to play basketball. And soccer. I'm trying to stay busy so I don't have to think about the whole family situation. I like being rich. I'm good at it. It's my favorite quality. Now, I'm that-girl-who's-family's-company-was-sold-because-her-own-family-turned-on-her.

What I'm listening to: "Train" by Flypside

What I'm reading: Emma by Jane Austen

What I'm thinking: I miss my money.

Keep women suffering of breast cancer in your prayers.

Dancing In The Moonlight

Hey, I know it's been a long time since I posted on here. Almost 2 months. Well, I'm a freshman! Yay! Can't believe it! I'm done with middle school! Anyway, I'm baby-sitting this summer. Yep. Okay, I'm not good at this. Did anyone watch the One Tree Hill season finale? I hated it! Nathan jumped into the water to try and save Cooper's life. Stupid! Everyone thinks Rachel's preggers but I think it's Brooke. I'm just glad Sophia Bush and Chad Michael Murray made up. Even though they aren't back together in real life (yet), they've made up. They're friends again. His new girlfriend probably will get the boot in about 3 months. I'm not supposed to say this but my cousin is going to college at UNCW and she's been going out to dinner and parties with James Lafferty and some of the other crew members (she was an extra this past season) and she said Chad and Kenzie fight all the time.

What I'm listening to: "Dancing In The Moonlight" by Toploader

What I'm Reading: To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee

What I'm thinking: Kelso is the biggest idiot.

Move Along

Okay here is a little thing I want to do!

Five things I would never wear:
1. A tube top
2. Daisy Dukes
3. Tube socks
4. A trench coat
5. A fanny pack

My five favorite clothing items
1. Polos
2. Black dress pants
3. Jeans
4. Tennis shoes
5. Cardigan

Rock of Ages

Okay, I'm back. It's been, like, forver! I've been all over the place! I just got back from Dayton and a lot of other stuff has been going on. I'm not going to go into that, though! For those of you who don't know a woman dies of breast cancer (CAPITIZLED?) every 12 seconds, so keep the cancer patients in your prayers. On to lighter subjects, uh, the basketball teams at my school played the parents and that was halarious! The girls played the moms and the boys played the dads! Oh, and today we counted and there are only 41 days of school left! I am totally jazzed! 41 days until I'm out of middle school! It's kinda sad. I don't think it's hit half of the kids in my class yet! They still act like kids. But, you know, they are. We are still kids. I'm just going to miss everyone. A few people more than others. They're is a girl in my class who I can turn to whenever I feel like crap and I know she gets tired of me but she still is like, "Dude, get it together!" and I don't know what I'll do next year if we end up going to seperate schools. I'll be so bummed! Wow, that was a long sentance! Uh, I'm doing this play at school. I really don't like it! It's so annoying! Oh, and there's a person in my class who thinks they are the best thing in the world. I mean she bosses all the boys around! It drives me crazy, but I just have to deal with it! Because she's been there alot longer than me. But let me just say I don't know why the boys put up with her. Anyway, that's about it! You know the end:

Reading: The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (for the 2nd time)

Listening: "Don't Phunk With My Heart" by the Black Eyed Peas

Thinking: I am so tired!